It’s a tough week here. As most of you know, my dad passed away exactly two years ago. Honestly, at the time, I struggled to even fathom how life could possibly even go on. And shortly thereafter I was dealt some other things that made me question so many parts about life. How was it all even possible? How is life so unfair? Looking back, it was the worst time in my life by far, considering my mom had just gotten out of ICU as well. Two years later, I never imagined time could heal those wounds so deep – that I could be brought peace.
I can say while time has healed things a bit, my heart is still so very heavy at certain times of the year – certain moments of the year. It usually relates to my kids when there’s something special that I know my dad’s missing. Or a family event that just doesn’t seem quite complete.
I’ve talked to so many of you who have told me that even many years later, you never forget. You always hold a special place in your heart for those you lose, especially when it’s sudden and all too soon like my dad. It’s true. And one thing I can tell you is that I have a tremendous faith in God that I otherwise wouldn’t have shared with most other people in this public space, and that’s been so important. He’s the reason I’ve gotten through all of my hardships.
Many people have told me they don’t know how I’ve done it all. And that’s simply my answer. Faith in God. He watches over me, and I rely on him every single hour of the day. He is my therapy. Prayer can be so powerful, and watching how he’s changed me and what he’s done in my life has made me in awe.
Miracles don’t occur by accident, and nothing in life does either. I’ve learned to stop trying to control everything in my future, and just Be still and know. Listen. Pray. Trust. He has a plan for me, and while I don’t quite understand why bad things happen so frequently, it seems, I know that I am blessed with what I have and he has the perfect plan for me if I’ll just trust his timing.
Love you, Daddy.
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. — Philippians 4:7