I’ve been pretty tired lately. By the time 6:30 p.m. hits and baby L is in her crib asleep, all my head wants to do is hit the pillow. But then there’s showering (kinda need that, right?)…and house cleaning…and organizing things for preschool…and…this blog. And if I want to speak even two sentences with my husband, I better stay awake for at least 30 minutes. Le sigh. Life with two at home is challenging, for sure. But I love my little ones so, so much. They are SUCH a blessing. In wouldn’t trade staying home with them for anything as much as I complain.
If you stay at home with yours, or if you’ve stayed at home with more than one kid for even one day, you’ll realize it can be fun! tiring! exciting! crazy! All of these things rolled into one, big thing.
So a couple of days ago I was about to put baby L down for a crib nap (which she doesn’t honestly have a lot of because she’s always on the go…stroller…car seat…with me because I need a nap, too). It was her late afternoon nap, so I was already spent. And then I got irritated like I do when little C tries to enter the room and refuses to play alone (ever). Just go watch your DVD for 5 minutes. I couldn’t get baby L down without rocking her, so I did and she went to sleep. Only 15 minutes later she woke up crying for her pacifier that was stuck behind her. And this time she would not let me put her back down in that crib for anything. I. Was. Tired. Of. it all. I took her to the rocker where little C was waiting and just began to rock her. I quietly said a prayer that I would let my anger go and calm down. I thanked The Lord for blessing me with my beautiful children.
And as it got really quiet and all the crying stopped, I looked down and baby L had fallen asleep in my arms, but little C had also fallen asleep on my shoulder. He was breathing deep and leaning on me. It was then that I realized how much they both need me…how much they lean on me for everything. And just how sweet they truly are. Trust me when I say there is nothing sweeter than two sleeping little ones on you.
It’s so hard when I’m in the moment, but I’ve made a promise to myself to slow down, relax more and not get so frustrated. Life will go on if baby doesn’t nap or little C wakes her. Just enjoying the moments with them is all I really need to do. Everything will fall into place. It’s all God’s plan. I love how He sent that message to me as we all three rocked in the chair together. I get it now.
P.S. little C does not nap. He stopped at the young age of three and this was probably his second all year long. Another reason this was so much sweeter. I couldn’t believe my eyes!